Sunday, October 22, 2017

What's Really Going On

Since my father passed away in February 2013, I have been extremely ill.  My thyroid failed and caused my organs to begin shutting down; nearly every four months, I was hospitalized for some crisis and was told I was close to death.  I suffered blood clots, pneumonia, anemia requiring multiple transfusions...it was prison.

After my last hospitalization, I vowed I would finally get well.  I worked on myself nonstop, uncovering every last shred of fear, anger, and lack of forgiveness I could find.  I stayed away from doctors thinking that I was finally healing.

Yesterday, I received a call from my doctor telling me he would not renew my thyroid medication until he saw me in his office!  I broke down, fearing the worst.  At that moment, I realized that I had not fully healed but instead had been avoiding certain issues which needed addressing!  A new lesson!

Everything went well at my appointment and I learned that avoiding is not healing.  It is essential that we dig deep, see everything clearly and go into all the unlit corners so we can illuminate what needs work.

Knowing this has helped immensely...every moment I remember my Truth is freedom.

Friday, October 6, 2017

Wind

I closed my eyes today in meditation and prayer...as I did, 
I had a vision of myself in profile.  

The wind blew into my face, my hair flew back and in an instant, I was like a tree shedding its late fall leaves...my body, caught by the wind, blew away, leaving my essence only.  

Immersed in colors I could never describe with words,
I remembered 


I Am.

Tuesday, September 26, 2017

SOMETIMES YOU JUST DO NOTHING



I have been struggling with an issue that has bothered me for some months.  The very fact that I have no solution, but that I am overly thinking this problem is the reason I have chosen to do nothing just yet!

I know my ego is driving this struggle!

Because I have taken the time to be still, do nothing but ask for guidance from God or Holy Spirit, I have seen that this is an issue steeped in a lifetime of pattern...in recognizing this, I have not entangled myself in a battle with another person, but have instead zoned in on the strength and trickery of my own ego.  My ego wants to make this someone else's fault...and why not?  If it isn't my fault, then someone else has to fix it!

What the ego doesn't know is that when I point my finger at someone or something else, I give all my power away!  That is unacceptable because I now know a different way.

Until the solution becomes clear to me, I will continue to be still and know the truth is coming.  In knowing this, I not only have the power to solve the problem, but I also have the opportunity to wipe out years of conditioning that no longer serves me.

Wednesday, September 20, 2017

Expansion Through Pain

Last night I experienced a great deal of pain from a condition from which I have suffered for years.  Recently, I have been relatively pain free so I was not expecting this surge.

My first reaction was, like most of us, to constrict...to tighten up giving acknowledgement to the pain; however, in that moment of giving in, I remembered my teaching.  Instead of constricting, I relaxed and set my awareness on God and our eternal knowing of expansion!

By expanding and knowing myself NOT as a body in pain, but as an Essence of Pure Consciousness, I was able to pass through the pain and leave it!

I Am that I Am.

Saturday, September 16, 2017

What If?

What if we got it all wrong?  

What if creation was NEVER about survival of the fittest or about the FALL of man and woman?

Maybe all the dissension and struggle is only a human concept made into reality and kept there by generations and generations simply passing these beliefs down to the next group?

What if life is NOT a struggle to compete or control, but is instead moments, not dictated by time or space, but filled with indescribable joy, laughter, light, music, dance, beauty and most of all LOVE?

What if all it took to see life in this other way was just the simple act of belief?  The knowing that life is, in itself, a miracle of true abundance, perfect health and ultimate harmony?

Perhaps The Kingdom of Heaven IS within and has been there all along!

I Need Do Nothing

Lately I have been frustrated with a situation where others are failing to see MY desired outcome.  With their ineptitude, they have treated me unfairly and arrived at incredibly ridiculous conclusions!  My mind has been overwhelmed with this chatter.

I was working through my umpteenth revision of said problem when in a flash, there was stillness and I began to feel the presence of God.  I knew, in the moment, God was gazing at me hoping I would notice!

When I did pay attention, I felt this question from God:  "Why my beloved child are you so taken with convincing others when you only need trust in me?"

Within an instant, my frustration and obsession lifted - carried off where all ego based thoughts and actions go.  My entire being was filled with knowing that I need do nothing, but open myself to guidance from Creator!







Not Running

When I began seeking spiritual answers, I did so because my life seemed incredibly painful and in the depths of my soul, I knew there had to be a better way...Essentially, though I believe I was running from my pain.

Today, I have cone full circle in that I know I can experience grief, anger, pain with the understanding that these emotions are not in themselves bad, but instead are an indication that I am alive and able to feel everything without judgment assigned.

All emotions are an invitation to know oneself as the Essential Self - alive!  I find the Heart of Myself in these moments.