Forgiveness and Light

I have spent a great deal of effort and time trying to understand and allow the idea that my mind (cause) creates a false reality and a world (effect) where so much pain exists.  That is the world I was living in last week with friends who (I believed) were causing so much pain.  

How was I going to get from the pain and disappointment to the place of forgiveness where I knew none of this was real...that my version of last week had not even happened?  I, me, myself did not have an answer except to spin the events around in my head over and over again hoping for some release!!!

It wasn't until I asked Holy Spirit to shift my mind (so I could see with right mindedness) that I received my answer!

There were no individual friends hurting me, there was no me to be hurt...we were all streaming ribbons and panels of the most beautiful light and colors ever created!

 My human eyesight was gone replaced by vision (my body itself had dissipated) and now light was all that existed.  Each person had become that incredible light, as if we all had been consumed back into our True Beings!!

In this existence there were no subjects, no objects and no time worn stories of inflicted pain!!  The All was free to be known as Infinite Perfection.

Account of my healing:  A Tough Week Rendered Into Light!

I was sitting here reminiscing about the last few days which found me squarely in the middle of ego dramas with friends.  Clearly I had some work to do involving forgiveness.

I became still and asked for the guidance of Holy Spirit.

Just then, I saw these friends as beams of beautiful light!  Powerful, bright, multicolored, shining beacons.  No longer were they bodies with personalities!  We were all part of the Light fueled by Love!

God healed my sight and gave me VISION.

Being

The following is my experience.  It began late Sunday afternoon and emerged fully by Monday morning.  There were no white lights, no booming voices, no small still whisper and no visions.  This is the best way I know to relate it:

❤️Imagine awakening one morning and knowing from inside out, you have no physical boundaries or limits!

You are everything!  Not that you are one with everything, or that your mind thinks it is everything, but you ARE everything!!

Whatever you do, you experience the ALL...if you are fearful in a situation, you are yourself, the situation as well as being the fear!  If you get angry with someone, you are the anger, yourself AND the person with whom you are angry.

Imagine taking a walk in nature and you know, not just understand, but KNOW you are the path on which you walk, the trees which grow along the path, the beautiful blue sky and clouds above you...you are more than anything you can label.

You are.

Not only are you ALL...but you are creation, energy, force, source coming out of you, being ALL!!!  You exist as Love, Light, Vibration and are infinitely able to create an entire Universe and then some.

No longer are you restricted.  Out of this ALL(you) pours or blooms everything that can be or become or is!

Finally, nothing ends or discontinues.  The ALL circles back into itself to be reborn into more ALL.  The cycle is endless.  You are endless.❤️

This Being has remained because it is Truth.  And contained within this Truth is the wonder and awe of each present moment of Existence/Being - the entire Creation.

There is nothing to be understood, comprehended or questioned.  Nothing to remember or awaken from...there is only Being, here and now.

Unconditional Love

Unfortunately very few people KNOW truly what unconditional love is..it is Love without a subject and an object.  When you arrive at this place of Love (no subject/no object) there will no longer be anything but that Love as your experience.  

People are rarely willing to go that far into self inquiry, discovery and forgiveness to lose all duality and rest wholly in the non duality of Love without ANY conditions.

Fight to the Death!!

I am in the process of trying to handle something with a medical group. It is taking an unreal about of time and energy due to the employees of said group being incredibly lazy, negative and unresponsive.

Yesterday, it was going on one month since I first made the request and by all accounts, this issue should have been resolved in two days!

I left the medical office with yet another disappointment requiring further time and waiting on my part.

As I got in my car, I wanted desperately to feel the anger and outrage my ego is entitled to feel and display after being so disrespected!  Unfortunately, my At One Self was not allowing me to go there.  I literally tried screaming and sobbing to no avail.  I just could no longer commit to being enraged!

Finally, giving up on this kind of reaction, I decided to try plummeting myself into abject despair.  Nope!  This was not going to work either.  I had no other choice but to just leave it...walk away!  Most who know me will agree this is not a comfortable position for me. I am not someone who concedes to others’ stupidity or inability.

Well...I guess, now I am conceding to my own being that is no longer defined by “out there”, but instead is committed to shining from WITHIN...!!!

It may feel a bit foreign to the “me” just yet, but to the I Am, it feels just right.

The Divine Spark

The secret of secrets is the divine spark
within each of us.
Rememberence is remembering
that which we already know
It is to get in touch with that divine spark
that God has placed within each human being.
In the Koran it says that God breathed from
the divine soul into Adam;
another way of translating that would be
that God placed a divine spark into
every human being.  And that divine spark
is the secret of secrets.
My master put it this way:
That spark in us could set the whole universe
on fire. Its greater than the universe itself
because its a spark of what is infinite.
And its within every one of us.
Who we are is far more than who we think
we are.

“To practice rememberence," you've said,
"is to unveil the knowledge and power
and beauty of this spark of God within us."

Robert Frager/Sheikh Ragip
psychologist and Sufi Master
in conversation with Jonathan Cott
On the Sea of Memory:
A Journey from Forgetting to Remembering

Copyright © Lynn Walker  2017

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Conversation

Me:  Father, I'm going out.

"Where are you going?"

Me:  I'm not sure.

"When will you be back?"

Me:  Not sure of that either...I just need to get out.

"Ok.  I love you."

Me:  I love you too!  Maybe I'll stop by that new place you created...you know, the one called Gaia.  I want to see what it looks like.

"My Child, it looks like every other place I've created...nothing new, nothing different, Love, energy, more Love...the same recipe!

Me:  Then why do you keep doing it?

"What do you mean?"

Me:  Why do you keep doing the same thing over and over?

"Because I Create!  That is what I do... I'm the Creator."

Me:  But don't you get tired of doing the same exact thing everyday?

"Never!"

Me:  Why not?  I mean what's the point of it all?

"The point is not what I Create, but what YOU make of it!!"

A Simple Christmas

A Simple Christmas

This has been a simple Christmas; yet in its simplicity, it has offered a depth of revelation, beauty, introspection and Love.

I struggled with Christmas for years.  The holidays always promised more than I ever felt they delivered.   Always, there was a sinking sensation that followed December 25th...Is that all there is?

For this season, I began early.  I resided in the knowledge that a Christmas Miracle was on its way!  There was no thought of what the miracle would be, but a true conviction that I would recognize it immediately and it would be exactly what I needed.

Additionally, I focused my actions on giving kindness to others - never believing that I had the key to what would bring them happiness, but instead asking what was wanted and then giving it with no strings attached.

Simple, direct, perfect.

My miracle arrived as an epiphany...like the sun bursting through a bank of clouds!  I recognized it immediately and now know that I am forever changed by this clarity and understanding.

Gifts to those who answered my queries were given in Pure Love and received with a swell of gratitude that overwhelmed and hugged me tightly!  This reaction forced me to question whether I had given or received - no doubt, probably both!

So as another December 25th fades away, I cherish simplicity of mind, body and spirit as a perfect approach to the Miracles of Christmas!

Thanks and Giving

We come to another Thanksgiving where people hustle, shop, cook and plan to execute a "holiday" - perhaps not truly aware of what they are celebrating.  Thankfulness, gratitude, family, health, etc.

Over the last few years, I have had to face the loss of all my immediate family in addition to enduring great stress over my own health;  lastly, I am asking serious questions about who I am and how I became this "who" or "am".

I reflect on Facebook and why I joined it.  At first I was fascinated by being able to catch up with friends from grade school, high school and college; but as time went by, I began to form new friendships with people who were essentially strangers, but of like minds.

Perhaps I am most grateful for these new friends!  No, that is not right.  I am just thankful.

As I have wandered about social media, I have come to experience less and less of myself and my uniqueness in the world.  My borders have faded, become fuzzy and I feel myself melting into all of you, no longer an individual, but more so a part of the whole.

I take great care to post only those items that others will appreciate and find powerful, uplifting or comforting...I am exhilarated when I find a video or photo or article which I know suits another friend perfectly - they will know they matter, also as part of a greater whole.

So, as these holidays approach and I shed grateful and loving tears for the family who is gone, I also smile at my new perspective-being part of All That Is and no longer separated by a need to be different, contrary or even outstanding!

I am One with All and for today, that is a very thankful place to be.

Update!!

I am so thankful to say, my commitment to healing and spiritual growth continues as miracles keep coming!

My doctor's appointment went great and I realize just how much I have released fear, judgement and lack of forgiveness.  Because of this and replacing that space with Pure
Love and gratitude, my body has become healthy and strong again!

I am working out like I used to and truly enjoying it!  I eat right, drink water and feel blessed every day.

There is always more to do, but I love and embrace this journey!  My hope is that each and every person I come across is able to feel this for themselves.

I Am.

What's Really Going On

Since my father passed away in February 2013, I have been extremely ill.  My thyroid failed and caused my organs to begin shutting down; nearly every four months, I was hospitalized for some crisis and was told I was close to death.  I suffered blood clots, pneumonia, anemia requiring multiple transfusions...it was prison.

After my last hospitalization, I vowed I would finally get well.  I worked on myself nonstop, uncovering every last shred of fear, anger, and lack of forgiveness I could find.  I stayed away from doctors thinking that I was finally healing.

Yesterday, I received a call from my doctor telling me he would not renew my thyroid medication until he saw me in his office!  I broke down, fearing the worst.  At that moment, I realized that I had not fully healed but instead had been avoiding certain issues which needed addressing!  A new lesson!

Everything went well at my appointment and I learned that avoiding is not healing.  It is essential that we dig deep, see everything clearly and go into all the unlit corners so we can illuminate what needs work.

Knowing this has helped immensely...every moment I remember my Truth is freedom.

Wind

I closed my eyes today in meditation and prayer...as I did, 

I had a vision of myself in profile.  

The wind blew into my face, my hair flew back and in an instant, I was like a tree shedding its late fall leaves...my body, caught by the wind, blew away, leaving my essence only.  

Immersed in colors I could never describe with words,

I remembered 

I Am.

SOMETIMES YOU JUST DO NOTHING

I have been struggling with an issue that has bothered me for some months.  The very fact that I have no solution, but that I am overly thinking this problem is the reason I have chosen to do nothing just yet!

I know my ego is driving this struggle!

Because I have taken the time to be still, do nothing but ask for guidance from God or Holy Spirit, I have seen that this is an issue steeped in a lifetime of pattern...in recognizing this, I have not entangled myself in a battle with another person, but have instead zoned in on the strength and trickery of my own ego.  My ego wants to make this someone else's fault...and why not?  If it isn't my fault, then someone else has to fix it!

What the ego doesn't know is that when I point my finger at someone or something else, I give all my power away!  That is unacceptable because I now know a different way.

Until the solution becomes clear to me, I will continue to be still and know the truth is coming.  In knowing this, I not only have the power to solve the problem, but I also have the opportunity to wipe out years of conditioning that no longer serves me.

Expansion Through Pain

Last night I experienced a great deal of pain from a condition from which I have suffered for years.  Recently, I have been relatively pain free so I was not expecting this surge.

My first reaction was, like most of us, to constrict...to tighten up giving acknowledgement to the pain; however, in that moment of giving in, I remembered my teaching.  Instead of constricting, I relaxed and set my awareness on God and our eternal knowing of expansion!

By expanding and knowing myself NOT as a body in pain, but as an Essence of Pure Consciousness, I was able to pass through the pain and leave it!

I Am that I Am.

What If?

What if we got it all wrong?  

What if creation was NEVER about survival of the fittest or about the FALL of man and woman?

Maybe all the dissension and struggle is only a human concept made into reality and kept there by generations and generations simply passing these beliefs down to the next group?

What if life is NOT a struggle to compete or control, but is instead moments, not dictated by time or space, but filled with indescribable joy, laughter, light, music, dance, beauty and most of all LOVE?

What if all it took to see life in this other way was just the simple act of belief?  The knowing that life is, in itself, a miracle of true abundance, perfect health and ultimate harmony?

Perhaps The Kingdom of Heaven IS within and has been there all along!

I Need Do Nothing

Lately I have been frustrated with a situation where others are failing to see MY desired outcome.  With their ineptitude, they have treated me unfairly and arrived at incredibly ridiculous conclusions!  My mind has been overwhelmed with this chatter.

I was working through my umpteenth revision of said problem when in a flash, there was stillness and I began to feel the presence of God.  I knew, in the moment, God was gazing at me hoping I would notice!

When I did pay attention, I felt this question from God:  "Why my beloved child are you so taken with convincing others when you only need trust in me?"

Within an instant, my frustration and obsession lifted - carried off where all ego based thoughts and actions go.  My entire being was filled with knowing that I need do nothing, but open myself to guidance from Creator!

Not Running

When I began seeking spiritual answers, I did so because my life seemed incredibly painful and in the depths of my soul, I knew there had to be a better way...Essentially, though I believe I was running from my pain.

Today, I have cone full circle in that I know I can experience grief, anger, pain with the understanding that these emotions are not in themselves bad, but instead are an indication that I am alive and able to feel everything without judgment assigned.

All emotions are an invitation to know oneself as the Essential Self - alive!  I find the Heart of Myself in these moments.

Non resistance

"Enlightenment could be defined as the absence of resistance to what is, the total intimacy with whatever is taking place without any desire to reject or replace it; so intimate that there is no room for a self to separate itself out from the whole."
     ~Rupert Spira

Yesterday, this Lesson came to me in no uncertain terms!

I learned as a child to behave in certain ways to assure an outcome which felt safe to me.  

As an adult who desires to be more spontaneous and recognizes that no outcome is always assured, this behavior no longer serves me - even the thoughts behind the action require understanding, forgiveness and release.

I have learned to replace control with faith....a faith in a greater intelligence that desires the absolute best for me.  In this process, I am free to see and acknowledge that often the journey is more telling than the destination.

Serenity

"At the head of all understanding – is realizing what is and what cannot be, and the consoling of what is not in our power to change.”

Solomon ibn Gabirol

Changing My World

Here is why I do not engage in politics:

Pointing my finger outwards towards people, places and things will NEVER fundamentally change my reality or the reality of the players in my world.

Only looking within, forgiving everyone and everything until I am only that which is infinitely pure and whole can truly alter the "outside" world because at that moment, my perspective will now be in line with Source.

Anything less than this is a half measure and unacceptable.

- After writing the above, someone commented that I should not diminish the strides political activism has made...my response:

I wrote something, but erased it because it didn't really capture my point.  There is nothing to my world except my perception of it.  (Same with you...everything and everyone in your world is based on your perception.).

If I align my vision only with Absolute Pure Infinite Love (Creator/Source/God/Consciousness) then my perspective radically shifts to one which no longer sees imperfection at all.

At this point, in my world, there is no longer a need for politics, judgment, anger, fear...etc., because anything not in line with my above defined vision cannot exist.

Simple - yes!  Easy - no.  But I will continue this path until I achieve this state of being.

- Someone questioned how I could just ignore getting punched in the face.  My response was this:

What I do say, and I was clear this is for MY path, that I can only make significant changes in MY world by changing how I perceive the world completely!  This is a working process, a rigorous, but exciting journey...not just pie in the sky hoping that I just won't get punched in the face by smiling at everyone!

No...this is questioning EVERYTHING I have been taught by people and experiences outside of myself...finding a different way of seeing, perceiving and eventually experiencing these things then using forgiveness to the ultimate degree to move away from ALL fear, anger, judgment, etc.

As I do this, my challenge is to become Absolute Pure Infinite Awareness (Love or Beauty) which by definition has NO opposites.  At this moment of transition, everything is unified into perfection.

My Time with Angels

One day many years ago, I arrived home from work and realized there was enough light left in the day to ride to Griffith Park, loop around it and come home.  I got dressed, put on my helmet and set off.

At the second major intersection, I had a full green light with no traffic so I started across...suddenly, I heard the sharp squeal of tires burning against pavement.  I looked up to see a car coming straight for me and within a nanosecond I knew they were aiming to hit me on purpose!

Something within me told me I would not survive the impact.  I let go.  I mean I really surrendered with only one thought, "Please God, don't let it hurt."  

Then nothing.  Time stopped.

THUMP! The car hit me - not the bike, but me, straight on.  I flew up into the air.

Suddenly, I felt the softest hand take my left shoulder and another hand take my right.  As if I were nothing but a feather, these two hands, which by now I knew were two Angels, lifted me ever so gently into the air and placed me oh, so softly on the ground!

Sprawled on my back on the pavement, I looked up into the faces of two men who laughed at the job they had done and screamed off into the evening!  Several cars followed them, believing they had intentionally murdered me - after all, no one could have survived that hit.

I was taken to the hospital.  I had only one puncture would on my lower leg and some sore muscles.  The police never pursued the men and the car they were driving was stolen.

I was alive!  The bike was not, but I was!

I was more alive than I had been because I knew unequivocally that my Angels were real and were constantly protecting me.