Dear Friends and Angels,
I can honestly tell you that I have
been dreading this holiday season....this is the first season without
my mom or my dad and I hate it. My perspective has been one of fear,
not love.
In addition to hating and dreading, I
have become full of expectations. I expected my friends to do this
or do that for me so that I would not have to be alone. It was or is
“all about me”...I had returned to a place where I was the center
of my own Universe.
Somehow I am very blessed by my
Creator...whenever my Universe becomes all about me, my Creator finds
a way to kick my proverbial ass, and kick it hard! But in doing said
kicking, I always learn something and grow spiritually by leaps and
bounds even if I am bruised in the process.
Every plan I had for Thanksgiving fell
apart and suddenly I was faced with either sitting home alone and
feeling incredibly sorry for myself or I was going to have to go
somewhere that I really did not want to go. Either choice, in my
Universe, seemed to be some punishment and I fell further into my own
self-imposed and created darkness.
I don't know why or how this really
shifted but shifted, it did. Suddenly, I was overwhelmed with the
idea that maybe this Thanksgiving was not about what others could
give me, but what I could offer to others. A simple concept, but
often I am far from simple when I can make something complex!
Instead of worrying about my day, I
decided that I would seek out others who were alone and needed
someone to brighten their day. I had heard someone who lost a six
year old child (during a school shooting) say the following: “It is
not about what we expect from life, but it is about what life expects
from us.” Additionally, the mother of the six year old was asked
what she advocates, such as gun control, etc. Her reply was this:
“I advocate love.”
And with that, I will end this and
remember to advocate love throughout this holiday season.
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