What's My Lesson?

Recently, I was about to give someone unsolicited advice today. I had written my text and was ready to send it when my guides intervened!!! They have a habit of doing that! I then realized that this advice was going to interfere with two other peoples' journeys and that was NOT mine to do. 

I can walk beside you on your journey but I am NOT allowed to go behind you and push, nor am I allowed to go in front of you and pull. Your journey is YOUR journey and our journeys are always separate. This way, we can each learn what we came here to learn.

Namaste.

Defeating Pain

Hello all FB ANGELS!! Here is a little trick I use when I am in discomfort or outright pain! I remember that I am simply energy and form rather than substance (although I am taught to believe I am skeleton and muscle, I am instead vibration which my mind perceives as solid) ...consequently, as I focus on energy and my vibration, I realize that my pain subsides. I hope this is clear and if it isn't, just ask me to explain it further!

Reality...just what is it?

We, or more specifically scientists, are finding that what we have long thought was reality is instead simply our unique perception of reality; therefore, what we believe we see as reality is truly the magic of how our senses transmit electrical impulses through our brains so that these powerful computers can make sense of the stimuli. Much of what we believe to be real is from what others have told us and how our brain uses stored information to fill in gaps when necessary. Consequently reality may be more subjective than first thought.

Here is something to ponder then: what if the first humans only perceived that there were things to be feared in their relatively unknown world? What if there was never a lack of resources that required fighting over? What if there was always enough territory for plants, animals and all humans so nothing required domination?

How different would the world be today IF we perceived everything through the hearts and minds of unconditional love rather than abject fear? I believe we could wipe out poverty, war and disease immediately with this shift from fear to love

Contracts We Make

I have been working hard on unveiling and healing myself of the deepest wounds within. While doing this, I was blessed with one magnificent vision and a moment where that still small voice of my guides came through to teach me.

The first vision is me as a newborn. I am swaddled in brilliant light and love as I am held in my Creator's arms. It is when I realize I am truly a child born of this Creator- GOD.

Secondly, I remembered times as a very young child when my brother (only 15minths older) had to ride a bus to school. This was a school for children who, like my brother, had been diagnosed with cerebral palsy. I looked up to see my mom weeping as her first born child had to leave for school. My mom hated the school, but at the time, most public schools would not take children with any physical issues no matter how slight.

Right then as I dried her tears the best I could for my size, I made a covenant with myself: I would never cause my parents any pain if I could help it. This promise was kept to myself and caused many unnecessary issues later on.

My guides made it clear that I was not to make covenants with others UNLESS they know and agree to them. By trying to be so noble at age 3 or 4, I did not have the information necessary to realize the impact of my solo promise!

Pain is available to teach us so there is no way to prevent or escape it. It is how we deal with the fear of the pain as well as the pain that matters and helps our spirits grow.

I am thankful for all my lessons and gladly look to more.

Getting to Know Me

Over time, I have realized that most of my youth was spent trying desperately to please others in an effort to be loved. As I got older, I brought this pattern into adult relationships as well. 

Now I could go to counseling and I did...what I found out was that my parents loved me to the best of their abilities and any inability to love probably came from their own issues with their parents and how they grew up. I also learned about passive aggressiveness during these sessions.

In studying spirituality and healing, I learned that I could and must change the way I looked at things and in time, the things I looked at would change. This made a great deal of sense.

However, after the death of my dad (my mom passed in 1991), I realized that I had some very deep pain inside of me - this pain always came out as feeling that my family really never loved me UNLESS I was doing what they approved of. Deep, deep down, I was never loved unconditionally despite it all.

I tried to change my perceptions....I truly believe that I am a child of God and that is enough - or at least I understand this intellectually. Unfortunately, far down in my soul, I still have had incredibly pain and I cannot figure out why, if I am so loved by God, I just don't feel it.

Today I heard that still, small voice that is booming with wisdom! "You are loved unconditionally but you refuse to let anyone in to love you in this way."

WOW!!! Could it be that simple? Was I not allowing love in? The answer was clear...love IS unconditional but it must be allowed into the soul and heart to have an impact. Sometimes the answer is so simple, it is too hard to see!

Forgiveness Lessons

I continue to learn lessons of forgiveness. Forgiveness is NOT about the other person or about condoning something. Forgiveness is about freedom for yourself. When we forgive, we allow our bodies, our minds, and our spirits to be free from anger and fear...from there, we move into love which is healing and powerful. 

Recently, I also learned that forgiveness is about allowing another person or persons to make the choice to no longer have a relationship with me. For a long time, I believed that if I forgave someone and they forgave me, it was imperative that we continue a relationship. I could not understand someone no longer wanting to stay connected...after all, there was forgiveness, wasn't there?

Now I understand that true forgiveness means letting go when one or both of us needs to walk away. No one is required to remain connected. Being able to let go with love is perhaps the most healing and powerful journey we can undertake.

May all your days be blessed with love, healing and forgiveness when necessary.

Caught in My Grief

Today I received an invitation to a memorial service for all of us associated with the same hospice who assisted in caring for our loved ones before their passing. Upon reading the invite, I burst into tears thinking about my dad and my mom and how much I miss both of them. This caught me by surprise as I truly thought I was past the deep grief I had felt when my father first passed away ( my mom died in 1991 so I really thought I was healed from that )....

After a few minutes, I felt my divine connection with Spirit, God and my family. I realized that my mom, my dad and all those we love are NOT their bodies. They are, instead, infinite, loving spirits who will exist forever as one with me. I am never alone when I remember this.

My grief is for the human side of me that forgets we are more than our bodies. I remind myself to live in the present and always, always see life through love, not fear. From this perspective, all is as it is and should be.